Thursday, October 12, 2006
Moved to www.vivacity-monde.blogspot.com
crazy little thing called love;
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Class was cool today! Ikah came with the food! Faddy, late. -_- Amy, as always stuck with me! (: HE was super late sey. Masuk dengan attitude xak. Sooo tak attractive! =p Eeeee, I LOOOOVE My Girls laa! They're the girlfriends that are always there for me! Faddy gives great advice, Amy is a great listener, Ikah? She and I have the same 'relantionship course'. Sometimes, BFs with same names, same duration of relationships, same reasons for break ups AND same nerdy-looking BFs! LOL! No offence Ridzuan, you WERE a nerd before a MAT kan? =d Now at home, a day from school re-opening. Work almost done. Hair seems longer. Life made easier! Btw, I think I'm gonna oath to avoid relantionships for a long time. Seriously, I did well for CA3. But I wanna do better. Kakak never had a teenage relantionship but now is married with 2 beautiful kids! I should follow her footsteps! Abang was a silat fanatic and look where he is now! I want to be successful to what! Last time I didn't stick to the promises I made for myself and it brought me here. I better keep on track before I hit rock-bottom. Mama says no boyfriends till Poly or Uni. I say Uni. My course in life is different now, circustances cause changes. I picked the good changes so, with the help of Allah, I can be a better person. I've got to be firm with myself. Very firm. If I don't start now, then when? I'm comletely moving on. What's happened, happened. Lesson is learned. And the mistakes will be avoid. Sooo...I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND THE PINK CROCS FOR MY BABY! GOD! WHERE ARE THEY? Gtg loves! See ya!
crazy little thing called love;
Saturday, September 09, 2006
I really don't want to start the fire of hatred.
So I'm just gonna say thanks for the lessons of life you've given me.
Just today 13 different people called asking," You okay?".
People, I've been okay for a while.
I'll be okay for a long time! (:
I know I have my love ones.
That's all that matters to me now!
Losing them will break me.
But having to lost him?
Makes me.
Thank you i-know-who-and-you-don't for telling me the truth.
I know the truth can hurt. But it is the right thing to know.
Since he dare not tell me, it's amazing how someone totally out of the picture stepped up a notch and lend a helping hand.
Even when you knew that you had to face the consequences, instead of him.
You put it aside and did the RIGHT thing.
I thank Allah I have you as my friend.
I'll be fine, perfect, wonderful, thanks to you!
He called you a pussy? HAH! Don't point fingers people.. =d
Too bad I'm a optimistic girl so I believe, "Apa yang hilang pasti ada yang mengambil tempatnya!".
Just a matter of who, how and when? Kan kan kan? (:
Weee! Hehehe!
Sooo...has anyone seen a pair of pink Crocs anywhere? I bought it for my niece taaaau. So give it back!
=d
See ya!
crazy little thing called love;
Yoohoo!
Call me crazy but I gave away my phone!
Yes, I'll have a new number.
But only Amy and PSLs will I tell lor!
=d
Yesterday went to Grandmama's.
I arrived early so I was the ONLY kid in the house!
I took control of the Teevo(some of you MIGHT know the meaning is)!
Adeq arrived later, while waiting I watched "Spanglish" and a bit of "High School Musical"
Spanglish was good, very interesting.
But HSM? Waste of my time. They use GADGETS to sing man!
They didn't use their real voices!
What kinda musical is THAT? =d
My and Abah agree it's western HINDUSTAN lor!
Laaaama aku tak ngok wayang!
Takpe, simpan duit kan kan? (:
Besok madrasah! Yay yay!
As Amy puts it," Boleh cuci mata!".
Cuz there is a certain HE that is hot. BUT perangai kurang ajar lah.
Nehmind, who said I'm gonna marry him kan?!
Just a guy that comes and goes lor!
HAH! Then toyol(Abdullah, which I met yesterday) will make the class a more vibrant place to be in!
I never thought I'll say this but, I Loooove Sunday Class!
BUT I haaaaaate Awalludin! xP
I wanna go for tuition!
Today Mat datang! Yaaaaaay!
Paipai!
KAKAK YAN, ABANG HAKIM, ADI, AIN, AMIR, KHAIREE & ARIF! I MISS YOU!
AMY I SAAAAAYANG YOU!
crazy little thing called love;
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Science project meeting was like soo typical lah.
The fermented milk smelt like spoilt bread sey!
Lunch'd at BK...
Came home...
Prayed...
Then ran 2.4km
Prayed...
Watched Oprah...
Did sci proj...
Prayed...
Now here I am.
Ya, I had a simple day.
Dang, homejoy not done!
Only Geog & Math down!
hey hey set me free!
stupid cupid stop picking on me! (:
crazy little thing called love;
Oh, fuck.
Guess he was was right.
"You may be fine today, I bet tomorow you'll fall again, cos it's just you"
He sent me this as well, which he found on friendster...
"Guys, realize that the girl holding on to u..
is PERFECT in their own special way.
The way she laughs..
The way she sleeps..
The way she loves you..
The way she tries to please you...
Always remember that.
She can always get up and walk away,
getting someone else who can love her
more.
For all you know,
there is someone out there wooing her
already,
but she is rejecting,
a maybe perfect love for her..
There might also be someone out there..
who is willing to love her more than you
are loving
her now,
fulfill her every need and love her as
much as she
loves you.
Understand that.
Imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today...
and then you cheat on her by hugging
and kissing another gal.
and then you run back to her...
and u do the same....
but you see love in her eyes...
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?
She loves you not because you are
good looking,
have money,
buy her things,
make her parents happy,
or that you have a car.
She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch,
every word you say,
everything
you do.
Guys.
Cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of that
special
girl you have.
For everything she has done for you, the least
you
can do is to give her unconditional love
as she
has given to you.
Girls and guys... if you agree with this,
repost
this just so that everyone can read this."
Yes, I get what you mean laa.
But you could atleast be a FRIEND and help me get on with life.
INSTEAD of showing me about how things could might have been!
I KNOW I don't have a boyfriend or a family!
I KNOW I'm at the losing end!
I KNOW that I'm waiting for something that might never even/ever happen!
I KNOW that the chance of it not happening is 99%.
But atleast there is that 1% left!
YOU may have no more hope but I DO!
You just SAY that you understand!
Damn you so don't!
I KNOW what I've lost!
I'm still trying to HEAL!
The least you CAN do is help me out!
NOT make me cling on to the past!
Call yourself my friend, but I KNOW your secret agenda!
Want to make me VULNERABLE right?
So you can BREAK me right?
REVENGE right?
Guess what MISTER?
You ain't going nowhere near me!
Cuz I SAW right through you!
Shut the fuck up lah eh.
I hate you. I don't trust you. I DESPISE YOU!
crazy little thing called love;
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
(: HEY! GUESS WHAT?
I'm all better!
Wierd huh?
I know, it's just me!
Reality kicked in. Yeah it hurt for a while, well actually a long, long, loong while.
But I believe that Allah could heal me.
And so Allah did!
As long as you believe Allah loves you,
No matter what happens you know that atleast someONE is caring, loving and thinking of ya!
Yes, I still have faith!
I admit. I still do love him. I do hope we'll be together again.
But hey, everything happens for a reason.
THAT'S FOR SURE!
Last time this happened, I seriously was HOPELESS.
But not now! I stand my ground!
ADVICE FOR EVERYONE:
The FINAL STEPS to overcome letdowns/closure:
1)FACE it. (I faced my break-up)
2)Let it OUT. (I cried :d )
3)UNDERSTAND what and why things happen.(Take it all in slowly)
Lastly.
4)BELIEVE in yourself and KNOW that you can go on like nothing ever happened!
And.....TAA-DAA you are YOU again!
To end it all, I shall thank...
(a) My brother, Farhan.
Those who DO know my bro. You'll understand why he means the world to me. And understand why he is THEE man of my life.
(b)Talkshow host, Oprah Winfery.
I watched one of her shows which explained how one can improve themselves. I made a HUGE impact on my perception on life. Thank you Oprah!
crazy little thing called love;
I've been trying to hold it in but really I can't.
I need to let it out.
Here and now.
Yes, we broke up because of your studies.
But even so how come the 'vibe' I'm getting is diffrent?
Even after having to go apart you are able to go and have fun?
While I cried.
Cried while studying.
Cried while eating.
Cried while praying.
I have never cried while praying to Allah.
What am I too you now?
Laling?
Best friend?
Friend?
Stranger?
I'm so confused.
I'm so alone, you should know what's happening in my family now.
I need you more than ever.
Unfortunatly for me I have lost you.
I feel like I've lost your love.
I feel like you think lesser of me.
Seriously, what am I too you?
I'm nothing near okay.
Afiq, tell me is all that I'm saying true?
Tell me if I'm wrong.
Cos I can't handle the pain, the preassure.
I'm sorry Allah. I'm sorry that I don't leave up to the name you've given me.
Only you know my pain, please help me through. Please.
crazy little thing called love;
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Sudah maafkan aku, segala salahku
Dan bila kau tetap bisu
Ungkapkan salahmu
Dan aku sifatku, dan aku khilafku
Dan aku cintaku, dan aku rinduku
Sudah, lupakan semua
Segala berubah
San kita terlupakan, kita terluka
Dan aku sifatku, dan aku khilafku
Dan aku cintaku, dan aku rinduku
Kutanya malam, dapatkah kau lihatnya
Perbedaan yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu
Oh...hanya malam dapat meleburkan
Segala rasa yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu
Ada Apa Denganmu - Peterpan
Pernahkah Kau Bermimpi Seketika
Berada Di TempatkuMembayangkan
Pahit Manis Berlalu
Entah Siapa Yang Tahu
Mungkin Nanti Kau Jua Merasakan
Berdepan Dengan Kata Menyesakkan
Takkan Tugumu Kebal
Tiada Pertimbangan
Keheningan Malam Membangunkan
Kepayahan Jiwa Meluahkan
Andai Kau Jujur Memahami
Tiadaku Menjauhi
Dan Kisahku Yang Masih Panjang
Menambahkan Berat Yang Memandang
Lantas Ku Pendam
Ku Putuskan Biarlah Rahsia
Semakin Aku Hidup Dalam Cinta
Tiada Kuasa Mampu Menghalangnya
Hentikan Kata Kata
Bertulangkan Dusta
Biarlah Rahsia - Siti Nurhaliza
Yes, it's stupid to put two songs' lyric. Tetapi kedua-dua lagi ini lah yang menusuk ke jiwaku. I'm on the rollercoster called 'Emotions' again. I need you. I hope you forgive me. Without you I am as good and gone. I miss you. I love you. You know who you are.
And good bless the soul of Steve Erwin.
crazy little thing called love;
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Well, it's Teachers' Day today. Things didn't go so well. I wonder, why can everyone put their mind to their work or stay cool INSTAED of getting mad? Not pretty helpful if you ask me..
Anyways this week hell for me. So much work, so little sleep. Bukan I yang sengaja tak tidur, memang banyak kerja. Cuz there was swimming laa, meeting laa, teacher's day rehersals laa...etc, etc, etc. So reach home late, do work till late. Wow! Can't believe I'm still in 1 piece now! Project(s) left to finish: (good-jolly-old)Science, Malay & History. Luckly malay is individual and my history group all girls! Yaaay! Still having problems with the science project though...karena, karena, karena. Allhamdulliah it's dateline is postponed. THANK YOU ALLAH!
I kesian lah tenggok my baby. Group dia pun ada karen-karena. Tapikan dia, "Yakin Pasti Boleh!" (: No matter what, as long as you have the heart of a B-Boy, competiton or no competition you're a B-Boy!
That's alllll I have to say now! Till I blog again, good nights & paipai! =d
crazy little thing called love;
